July 12th, 2010

 I remember the days when I was woken with a kiss. 

I remember the turning of my stomach when I saw you drive down my street

I remember Loosing myself in you.

I remember Thursday Night date's 

I remember Not knowing where to go

I remember you looking down on me

I remember the sad look in your eyes when you looked at me.

I remember the light in your smile

I remember That light leaving

I remember you  hanging up on me

I remember You ignoring my calls

I remember the Night you chose him over me.

I remember the tears you cried when I said it was over

I remember the monster you became

I remember walking away forever.

I look back and realize You never were the one for me. 

I remember July 12th 2010

With that being said I am trying very hard to nevermore look back at what we "had"

Goodbye old friend. 

-Spencer

Bonfires,Lighting Storms,and Scary movies

Hello Everyone, I hope you're all doing well!

First of all I wanna say that I love the weather rite now. Its been raining and thundering all day. Finally, some cool weather. I love it. It makes me feel at peace and also a little unsettling. Its been nice not sweating every second of the day ha ha ha.
Well I was supposed to go to a bonfire tonight, but I am not sure if it is still going to happen or not cause of the rain, but I hope we all still hang out. I love being around friends. So my sister and her husband have been up here visiting us, they got here yesterday and they will be here until Monday. I am happy to see them again. We watched a really good Horror movie last night called VHS, man it was so good. It really did freak me out! I love actually getting freaked out from movies! This lightning has been amazing, I really enjoy it for some odd reason. Maybe it just shows the Earth in action. I am just fascinated by Nature.

Yesterday was a hard day. I was kind of running a little late to school. and it was just annoying. Brittany texted me and asked to eat lunch with her, I was so stoked, so Of coarse I said yes, but in a mass confusion and miss-communication it didn't happen. So that made me pretty mad, And I had to sit in the union by my self for a couple hours. Things did get better as the day went. I spent some time down in Layton with Kyle and then had a movie night with him and our buddy James. It was a pretty fun time.

I guess I will end with this:
I have been looking hard for a place to give my heart. I am not sure why but I just cant stop myself from getting attached to things easily. In turn this usually results in me getting upset or hurt because we cant rely on the world for happiness. We really have to dig deep in our selves and find what truly makes us the happiest. I love to write music and edit videos. That is what I LOVE to do, And I put a lot of myself in to my work. If we can find a place to put our heart that we know wont let us down, I feel that we can really be okay. I am still keeping my head up and letting life take its coarse with me. I am very blessed to be where I am rite now. I am happy I have good friends Like , Alayna, Alexandria, Kyle, and Cody.
I hope your weekend stays wonderful :)

-Spencer