missing

I got my hair cut today, and I feel fly like a G6 ;)
but I am doing a lot better than I have been in a long time. It has been nice moving on from rachel. I have been meeting new people and loving every minute of it. I just need to find a pretty girl to take on a date!
So I am getting close to having 1,000 subscribers on my youtube page. I never thought that it would happen. School starts this fall and I want to go full time, which means that I might have to quite my job. I am not to sure yet. My friend Ben is leaving on his mission at the end of the summer. I will miss him. I am with him right now. he is playing League Of legends and singing Justin timberlake. haha Classic Ben.

Life is becoming more real with every day. I feel like I am really living life. It feels good.
I miss my friends, mitch and preston. they are on their missions.

Any way I guess that is all for now. thanks for reading

Herp a derp derp

I need to go to the dentist. my teeth hurt.
so this week has been the most exiting week I have had in a long long time. I went to st george with my friends for a few days.
I feel my self growing up a little bit more. I really want to move out and live on my own, so I dont have to stay in this house that smells like cats, and so she will actually enjoy coming to visit. I dont blame her for not liking it here, I dont even like it here. I just wanna get in a big blankie and watch How I met your mother with her, she keeps telling me how funny it is, so I need to watch it.
The walking dead season 2 finale is tonight, and I am very very exited.
I only have about a month of school left, but ya know It's gone by very fast!
is it wrong to want to be married? like I really do want to be married and have sex. yupp I want to be able to have sex. TMI, I know but ya

Today I am feeling a little better, I got two letters from my best friends so that is always really good.

-Spencer Sullivan

take a deep breath, and button up your shirt.

I set my glasses on the table next to my computer, so I can see life the way god intended me to.

I feel nervous of things that are ahead of me, I dont think people really know how afraid of things I am. I put on this act like I am just a giant loud funny guy, but I am really scared of things. Like People, people scare me. On the outside it looks like I can talk to any one about any thing, but in reality it is hard for me inside.
I worry about her, the one I love. I always wonder what she is doing or what she is thinking. I wonder is she ever stops to think about How I am doing..
Sometimes I feel alone, but I know I am not. but doesn't it always seem like you are in those moments were love fails you, and no is there?
well sometimes I find solace in the fact of being alone. sometimes its nice to not have any one there and you can just be yourself and be left to your thoughts.

Life seems to be moving so fast, but painfully slow at the same time.. I am scared of next fall. she is moving away, and I dont know when I will ever see her. and that scares me. I am going to school full time so that means tons of homework. I will be twenty years old this fall.
every things just seems like a dream. everything feels like I am about to wake up and start my real life, in the city with my future wife in our little apartment..
when will I wake up? maybe when she says "I do"

for those seeing in reverse

man, I need to keep up dating this thing.
I love you all. :)

stepping on ants always helps with the heartburn

Well hello there, ( I doubt any one is actually reading this) It has been a long time since I have posted. but I am back and better than ever.
do you ever have heart burn? I do, and IT SUCKS. like really bad.
I am working at little Caesars now, and I kinda like it, mainly because my friend jax is there
he is a kewl kid ;)
so I have to work tonight, its the first time I have worked a Friday over there. it will probably be really busy, which I am not exited for, hopefully I can be on sheet outs again. I love doing that.
modest mouse is pretty good, just saying.
OH and the other day I went to Provo to visit Jarett with Ben, we spent the night with Shane, and it was pretty sweet. I still love adventure time. It's such a funny show. I really like the new season of family guy too. its a great one.
any way I think this all I am going to write. I will try to write more.
for my own sanity haha
I dont really think any one will read these but It's fun to think that there might be some one out there who would
I mean there has to be at least one person rite?
well I'll just keep that thought and go on my way
-Spencer Kimball Sullivan

today

So my sister went into the hospital yesterday.

She had a fetus forming in her right Fallopian tube, and it exploded inside of her.

she is doing better, but it was scary.

any way. 

Today Rachel is going on a date with a kid in her ward named Jordan.

I think she will have fun. but It's kinda weird.

BUT

its for the best.

:)

any way I feel fine.

I have to work today, and that sucks but whatever.

I hope Rachel has a good time on her date. 

I love her

I guess thats all for today

-Spencer Sullivan

pie

I like it.



-spencer sullivan